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its been 13days ever since i left sch yet it seemed as if it has been such a long time. Fun times always overpower the torturous experience. this time i can say they last, at least for now. its strange how different company brings you different experiences, emotions, etc.. things are just like how they are, quality time becomes more distinct and significant. Friendships do get more deeply rooted with numbers, yes years. (time matters) relationships that are worth cherishing usually last a long time. images of a single outing after gazillion mths stay deeply etched in my mind. they dont fade as easily, as i understood what is important. i believe in those mutual understanding. Just minimal words and facial expression are sufficient, by looking into the eyes, there is emotional connection. everything just flows. (maybe a lil too much, but it feels that way) "you just need to trust yourself.. " next, planning for the MEGA BIG plt outing! Sometimes there's so much we have to ...

1 2 3 4 theres only one way two say those three words ohyea.jollity~ shall not elaborate too much, else someone will hao lian. tell you, i absolutely love surprises! came home and it was so :DDD coz my sis bought me a fantabulous present. i literally cried out, 'omg so nice!' i admit im messy. laugh all you want, but now its all cleaned up. *grins

"hmm.. wads in there.." (wad art thou peeping at?!) after all the rain and shine, finally this spells F-R-E-E-D-O-M ! life can never be better than this :) (dont ever try COFFIN. it sucks.)

some outdated events that happened before A's.. big thanks to my gf here, yea she made me really really high that day. im so honoured:D checkout the wonders of the camera. its done at very fast speed.i was rooting for Hamilton btw. finally, the long awaited farewell. we look like a family potrait here: managed to catch some breathing space to catch up w plt mates. if u can spot me, go ahead. (u probably cant.HEH) there's a reason why i didnt post the proper photo instead. this is the REAL us. NZ tagged along too (: the cosy corner where we acted like our home, celebrating YL's bday. we sang THRICE just to record it properly into the bear. mighty moka look carefully. the man's nose has been chipped off. the other's smile is just weird. cutie pie this is exclusive. u'll nvr see this side of chuyi.

finally, the long awaited day! seriously no one wld understand how i feel except for Jaz, theresa, keli, winnie, Clive, Yuda i think we guys rock man, we tide through this all in one piece. u know u'all are my comfort and constant support during this whole time (of course there are many others), esp before the start. After talking to some of you i kinda felt braver. THANKS, even though some of you may not read this :) and im really grateful to those touching msgs of encouragement, esp during the last wk before A's. that helps. and i do miss the kopitiam ppl coz i know we kinda drifted apart after yr 2 (or you may say 3) due to many reasons esp the timetabling! good luck to the guys that are gg NS and girls lets meet up! after exams, im overwhelmed with boredom. this is how education has turned us into. study occupies most part of my life. i shall get cracking and spend my time fruitfully w doing what i like now. top on my list: 1. salvation army, last catch to art biennale 2. t...

Damn it. shit. help. what can i say more for econs paper? some said its easier to fail. not to say abt scoring. how can this be? i prefer to live in denial. i cant wait for this all nightmare to end. i dont know why we are putting ourselves through all these torture. why is it so tough just to live happily which is ultimately what we are chasing for? i hate this.

NZ tagged me this( for the first time im doing tags) The rules and regulations: 1. Each player of this game starts off with 10 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself. 2. People tagged are required to post their own 10 weird things/habits/little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. 3. At the end, tag 10 other people! 4. No tag back ! 1. i like to bathe the min i wake up 2. i used to be gym crazy/ obsess abt exercising ( maybe i will resume my routine soon. haha) 3. recently i really wanna dance and i secretly move to the groove of music in the lib! 4. i was stalked by a weird guy(i prefer to say pervert) for 1yr 5. i had a crush on my pri sch teacher! he even wanted me to be his godsister 6. i was dozing off at tuition one day, my head moved pretty obviously that a girl beside me offered me chocs! 7. i like to cut fizzy hair. cant stand it when its not smooth 8. my stomach croaked whenever im hungry even though i tried hard to control :( 9. i like surprises. pl...

huey likes to do stupid things. She believed in telepathies. but maybe not anymore now. she took a bet and lost.

ive never doubted you. i dont know why that came out but i know nothing has changed anything.

when stress kicks in, i can be anything. how can anyone control ur emotions when there's only 9 days to A's? i was being terribly mean just now. i shouldnt hav done that, i regret it. i was out studying late and Dad called out of concern to ask me whether i'll be home. For some reason that really irritated me. I took a deep breath to contain myself but in that spur moment, i just blurted it out. I told him that there wasnt a need for him to keep calling to check on me. He gave me a short reply and hung up. I could sense the disappointing tone that speaks, 'i called out of concern yet this is what i get.' i felt really bad plus it makes things worse when i couldnt concentrated to get in my Econs facts into my brain. and some inconsiderate person was blasting their noise to annoy me even further. Its really noise, not even music. It sounded like some opra chant that i couldnt help but suspect what if im the only one that heard that, like its meant just for me. brrrr.....

why cant things be just perfect and satisfying all at the same time? like when ur language is improving, ur content just dipped. suddenly everything came so clearly to me. someone told me just get an E for prelims and ur A's will be a B, i looked to my left and right and back to mine which is oh-so-atrocious. i see desperation. i was touched by the 'auntie' that gave me the banana milkshake. whoever u are, or is it the both of you, i really do appreciate that. 'auntie gave you this to tell you not to be sad' at that moment i felt like tearing. but i dont. at least not that easily. i never want to show that in public coz i dont like others to be affected, like how i dont like to be affected by others too. for now FOCUS .

so many many things happened all too fast tonight. too sudden for my lil brain. i didnt have time to react and its also my most natural way to react. adrenaline/emotion overload, wadever u call it. hahahaha. mixed feelings and way too much to make out in words. and i must really give a shout out: i LOVE my XINYI lotts :)and my family and YOU. hee. now i understand what it means by a moment to remember.

JX bday was sort of a walking marathon. we conquered the mountains and seas, against all odds. the wowWOW birthday girl! and later met up with her best friend, HQ at Liquid kitchen to chill. exhausted but fun. as usual, unintentionally i made a joke, an embarrassment of myself. i shall not disclose it here then.

i really sympathise with her, for what she has to put through and being helpless about it especially on that SPECIAL day. all i can do is to help her see things better and lighten her burden by being the listener. i know some things are hard to cope and thats part of life. just remember you're worthy of every friendship and love you can get :D YAY tmr will be funnnn! i wanna go overseas with friends when A's are over, anyone's up to the challenge?

omg. this is freakingly funny. louellazemama@hotmail.com says: Hi *huey ²- i am the pretty duck says: u are? louellazemama@hotmail.com says: hey, A/S/L?:) *huey ²- i am the pretty duck says: u probably got me wrong. im nt the person ure looking for louellazemama@hotmail.com says: hey whats up babe, U got a webcam? finally someone adds me, I am soo fuckin horny today for some reason lol speaking about lesbianism.

anw i think im so lucky! i got to go for the BOYS LIKE GIRLS concert last wk! THUNDER. the Great Escape haha. dont be envious coz they really drag our time till the very end. Prelim part1 updates. ma and ec were ok. lit -. chem SCREWED. somehow i nvr failed to miss them. im always glad that i can make their day like how they made mine too. cant wait to hangout with them again. and not forgetting Ironman, self-proclaimed Marshmallow boy. HAHA.

should i be fustrated or not. i have no idea why im pissed and why should i wait. maybe im the only one sulking here and you feel nothing. maybe i didnt want you to know. i must set my priorities right NOW. no more shopping online.(im sooo in love with D&G. HEE!) no more tv. CONTROL computer usage. uhh. no time for running :(( the glutton cannot carry on like that. HELP!

the bus was at the bus stop, i saw it. i was hoping i could catch it. but i just watched it drove away without any attempt to chase. immediately after that i felt like a loser. whats hope when you dont even try to do anything to achieve it. it becomes hopeless. and raining makes it worse. ive resorted to turn to chocolates to inject some endorphin to lift my mood. lately, we've been talking lesser. i need a major mood uplifter and snap out of this. can you do the job?

i dont know what ive been going through these days. can i say they made me feel more motivated or. it seems like a far-fetch goal for me. ive observed difference in my friends. how some became happier in their diff phase of life. its amazing how their personality become more open. checkout the human behaviour. so whats what now. today was fruitful studying with JX. maybe we should try this(s'pore spirit) again.

i dont get why are some ppl so fake. one moment she can act as if you're her bestest friend in the whole wide world and another moment she just turned her head away when she has found her clique of ppl. how queer ppl are, seriously. i saw her looking at me from afar, i thought maybe a polite hi or wave isnt asking too much for but i was wrong. i waved and she actually turned her head away. WOW. AS IF URE SO GREAT HUH. i dont need such ppl to be called friends. i tapped her and she pretended to just spot me. 'oh hi..' THANKS HUH. @#$%^& she certainly gave me another affirmation as to the rumours of where she's coming from. ------------------ HAPPY 19th JO dear! someone who has stood by me during these years and grew to be one of my closest friend. im willing to lend u a listening ear anytime just like how ive accompanied u through ur downs. just so glad that i can see ur smile again :) u know what i mean, orange no more! what a fortunate girl she is, cause we all lov...