i know this is how things are. circumstances dont permit. but then again opportunities can be created. sometimes i dont notice that im being quiet coz in fact im actively thinking of stuff. Many, many things are occupying my mind, just like a malignant cell that hasnt been removed completely. Thats why i was kinda surprised when they commented. Maybe its just the start/end of the day that is making me wanting to be more peaceful thus sometimes i choose to just listen and not actively involve in any discussion. However largely, it still boils down to my mood. im sorry that im kinda moody and soul-less but i rly did have fun searching for which xiang . thats the da xiang . haha. i bet Han Yanyi had lots of my stupid photos on hostage, pls yanyi i love you. hahaha! There're lots of errands i have to do, things that i've got to go tidy up but im procrastinating. i want a change of environment but then again its easier said that done. Not that im not happy how it is now but i belie
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i think im ok now. i was just really lost and insecure for the past few days. i was feeling damn terrible at work yesterday but i managed to do crisis control. Its not only scaring you but its freaking me out as well. i wanna talk to you :( Its indignant and confusion. At least at night i had things to keep it off my mind. i love Jo and company for the fun that we shared. After the trip today, im more assured. Please, please. i want my happy days.
How i wish i didn't know it. Maybe its speculation but the time, the ppl there and all the evidence and my own analysis all came too clearly to me. Its undeniably obvious. My heart sank. i felt like im being fooled around in this stupid game. i dont doubt myself. But my positive outlook is wearing away fast and the situation isnt encouraging at all. Then again, i zoomed out to see the big picture and realised i ought to swallow my own plight. Did i see this coming? Did i bring things upon myself? Everything is slapping me back to square one. This is reality. Things dont just change for no reason. Pity is never a weapon, strategy is. i did have fun with you guys today, we laughed and i did enjoy. But that doesn't change the fact. im constantly reminded, every minute. Sometimes i dont even recognise myself. seriously im damn tired of all these. shagged. im really shagged.
WHAT IF I DONT GET IT? you'll never understand how haunting it is unless you are in my shoes. i need a change, i feel suffocated at work. i dont know why. Maybe coz i havent been producing leads. But the angel on the other side is telling me to endure just a lil bit more. Mundane-ness is killing me. One thing i cant tolerate. We are so bored that we result to poking each other randomly. So i turned my head towards Claudia, "Yes?" Her reply was *smiles. "im bored" Me, "... " The jokes in office are no longer funny. They keep repeating the same old story that has worn off the novelty and it becomes empty and meaningless. Just like them trying to pair up these 2 ppl that nothing is ever possible going to happen (One is a mum of a boy, the other an intern) and they kept using the Rihanna and Chris Brown example on them. Sometimes i just laugh along for the sake of laughing. After that i paused and thought, im not even amused yet im doing the act. Maybe tha
i found some random stuff that amuses me either when im surfing the net or walking on streets. cool huh. we should visit your road next time! Quek, see i didnt forget you even when im feasting on Prata. hahaha The night is never young. i enjoy the groove and blast of music. Met some new ppl too! Liberty Queen says Hi. lately i found a new hobby: we all wish we were neighbours right :/ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ secret code, guess!
hello, i really love how my life is right now. i love the weekends. i know some friends are really for keeps. i want to receive more letters. i still want my holiday! Live The Life You Love, Love The Life You Live Awareness + Desire + Belief + Action + Perseverance = Phenomenal and Seemingly Magical Outcomes in Your Life You must be aware of what you want; nurture a burning desire to pursue it; hold the belief that you will attain it; create an action plan to achieve it; and, finally, persevere until you get it! i will hold onto this until i get what i want.