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trust is not being afraid even when you are vulnerable. how true is this? very true. how many people can you trust in your life? and how many people are u capable of gaining their trust?which is more important? being trusted or trusting people? love actually makes me becomes vulnerable, because i get too dependent on him i get easily irritated when im supposed to see him, but in the end din i expect him to be there when i need him, but he cant be there everytime. and i get very upset if he cant be there. i cant stand myself when i lose my temper so easily at him just because i expect so much more from him i cant forgive myself for keep forgetting tt he is a human as well- he gets tired, and need a breathing space.i know he's trying his best so i shld give him a break i dont like the way my feelings get so much controlled by him,because all these make me vulnerable- a state where i keep worrying if i would get overboard at times, let my emotions take over me, and drive him away. A s

It makes me kinda excited that i have something to look forward to. I have a new found toy! Something that i really wanted for myself. Ive found back the certain feeling that was somehow lost along these years. Its the motivation and taking great pride in the achievement you've fought for. However, it is coupled by an ominous sense of unspoken stress. But at least ive got the vision and determination. Although there is some waste, i will not allow that to dampen my spirit. Let this be a test- the first challenge i post to myself. Im really trying very hard, my very best but does anyone know that? Now tell me what the hell is going on again. im gg to escape to Pulau NTU. i wont be back soon.

ok i realised i shld snap out of all these. JUMP on Saturday was a-w-e-s-o-m-e! Their stunts and skills are really captivating. All eyes locked on them, the audience couldn't take their gaze off them, including me. Entertaining with light humour in between. I was awed by everything. They literally jumped and flipped their bodies 180 degrees in the air, not once but consequtively. Like a moving ferris wheel. They can also bounce off the walls perfectly. Like those ppl in Kungfu shows. (Note: stick stuck in the butt cheeks) Yeaaa. Left the place wanting more. I'd like to enjoy more of such given the chance :) *** One day in the car.. (Smth before made me ask this qn) Me: You're still in NS?! Avon's bro: Yeaaa Me: How come? But you seemed so free. Avon's bro: How do you know im so free? Me: Cause you're always at home? Avon's bro: How do you know im always at home? Me: .... yes, he just made me sound like some stalker. And the evil bf was not helping. He was la

And yet again. again. There's so many things in life that is not within our control. And its just a fine line between respect and knowing what you want. I really feel so sad for Joy. Why did that happen? Although i can understand why she did it, i still feel unjustified for her. This is one of those helplessness that cant be explained. I really dont want my friends to end up like that but its about respecting decisions. Its like you took the immense courage to let everything go, thinking its for your own good but it turned out hurting even further. All because you still love. Whats the point? Why are you making life miserable for yourself? Damn it. I dislike goodbyes. Especially long ones, not days, not months but years. Cheer up, Y! I dont want my friends to be sad :( Emotional rollarcoaster sucks.

If money is so invincible, i want to buy your time. Buy many, many to stock up in my safe deposit box so that when i need it, i can have it. So that i will no longer be sad. i know life has many sacrifices, this is just one of them. *** Why are we all working so hard for the sake of working? To pursue what we thought is satisfaction and fulfillment.

Suddenly, this drama became meaningful knowing that its happening real life. That was when it was still TCS and not Mediacorp. im just like many curious viewers, wanting to know their lifestory, tho not a fan. i love old shows. They are more genuine as compared to how much marketing is involved in the industry nowadays. Or maybe its just how time tricks the perception. Compare how the media has been growing since ten years ago. Generation gap. And i hope it rains, you're the perfect lullaby.

Lifts are creepy. i rather take stairs. i wanna watch!

The point is, just seek it. I have been travelling around Sg quite a bit, realising there's many many nice places ive yet been to and also some nostalgic places that draw beautiful memories. Its like walking down the memory lane alone, time has changed so many things. There are ppl that ive once been close to and now we are barely strangers. This quiet lane made these bridal shops stand out. The historical infrastructure has an amazing combination with the glamourous gowns. Looking at them, made happiness possible. Deserted lane at Craig Road. Do you believe this rundown place is a community centre? It was situated behind the Getai and for a moment i thought it was closed. This is nearby my ex neighbourhood. It used to be a pSch and now an Int Sch. Brings back childhood memories. This place is captivating. i can sit there and just stare at the place one lazy afternoon. Another day at TohYi, i passed by Toh Tuck Av. i still rmb vividly how often we went over to ZhiHui's to rehea