Life's a beach! Social night Science Bash, science crash. Farewell for Claudia!
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i think im losing my appetite again. im still not eating tho im home early. And im really tired, even using com now makes me wanna doze off. BUT i have to work from home, im not done with cleaning my excel sheet which kinda sucks. The NUS orientation clashes with work! There's a new project coming up and im the only resource but i will be away for orientation leaving my colleagues withering. Ive got to think of a solution but what? Bony is holding my leave on hostage :( Im relieved that i didnt go to ButterFac the other night which i almost wanted to if not for something on. At the same time im thankful that the other guys who went were alright. i hope nothing happens to them. Twice at the same time today. i get it. This is life. This never happen in the past maybe its due to what i strongly believe and has confident in THEN. Gotta get back my grip on the leash.
Steamboat at Yanyi's. It felt so reunion dinner-ish for cny. Cosy. We had a challenging task to finish up all the food to the extent that we all started to stare into spaces and not uttering a single word. My kinda behaviour when my stomach is exploding. Then the funny couple decided to challenge each other to finish the chicken galore. They tried to cheat by shoving more chicken to the other using tactics eg. distraction. haha: we feast till 11 plus PM. Then we collapsed all over the living room like dead corpses. The NS shorts was the very much commented. yada yada. MJ throughout. Shiok. After that we KO-ed, even the owl who's hyper at night. haha. super classic. Went to SPCA with Jo after that to scare the animals. We almost melted in the sun, spare me pls. While i was watching my drama at home, ko-ed consequtively till i gave up watching. i may have to re-visit the sun again tmr, can i not?
Phew. Appeals done. Finally i can catch my breath, big big gulps. But its not for long before i have to fret again :( This is the penalty of living in an elitist country and just too bad that you don't do well enough to reach their expectations. 30th Just as I was out-of-sorts at home, Fau texted and we agreed on an impromtu chitchat :D everytime is a good time. Pok turned 19 and we celebrated on saturday. Although she looked cui(haha), we had a great night. See the artificial candle? Damn cute la. When she blew, yeeling wriggled her finger to show the fire extinguishing.haha. birthday girl! yes, i havent said enough. CHECK JX OUT! she got a missing front tooth. LOL this photo is nostalgic. it reminds me of those movies where random people meet coincidentally in the park and became soulmates. 31st Playing touch again was really satisfying. It has been months, almost to a year. These two are some of the many that I haven't met up for sucha long time! We played Vball with this gr...
i know this is how things are. circumstances dont permit. but then again opportunities can be created. sometimes i dont notice that im being quiet coz in fact im actively thinking of stuff. Many, many things are occupying my mind, just like a malignant cell that hasnt been removed completely. Thats why i was kinda surprised when they commented. Maybe its just the start/end of the day that is making me wanting to be more peaceful thus sometimes i choose to just listen and not actively involve in any discussion. However largely, it still boils down to my mood. im sorry that im kinda moody and soul-less but i rly did have fun searching for which xiang . thats the da xiang . haha. i bet Han Yanyi had lots of my stupid photos on hostage, pls yanyi i love you. hahaha! There're lots of errands i have to do, things that i've got to go tidy up but im procrastinating. i want a change of environment but then again its easier said that done. Not that im not happy how it is now but i belie...
i think im ok now. i was just really lost and insecure for the past few days. i was feeling damn terrible at work yesterday but i managed to do crisis control. Its not only scaring you but its freaking me out as well. i wanna talk to you :( Its indignant and confusion. At least at night i had things to keep it off my mind. i love Jo and company for the fun that we shared. After the trip today, im more assured. Please, please. i want my happy days.
How i wish i didn't know it. Maybe its speculation but the time, the ppl there and all the evidence and my own analysis all came too clearly to me. Its undeniably obvious. My heart sank. i felt like im being fooled around in this stupid game. i dont doubt myself. But my positive outlook is wearing away fast and the situation isnt encouraging at all. Then again, i zoomed out to see the big picture and realised i ought to swallow my own plight. Did i see this coming? Did i bring things upon myself? Everything is slapping me back to square one. This is reality. Things dont just change for no reason. Pity is never a weapon, strategy is. i did have fun with you guys today, we laughed and i did enjoy. But that doesn't change the fact. im constantly reminded, every minute. Sometimes i dont even recognise myself. seriously im damn tired of all these. shagged. im really shagged.
WHAT IF I DONT GET IT? you'll never understand how haunting it is unless you are in my shoes. i need a change, i feel suffocated at work. i dont know why. Maybe coz i havent been producing leads. But the angel on the other side is telling me to endure just a lil bit more. Mundane-ness is killing me. One thing i cant tolerate. We are so bored that we result to poking each other randomly. So i turned my head towards Claudia, "Yes?" Her reply was *smiles. "im bored" Me, "... " The jokes in office are no longer funny. They keep repeating the same old story that has worn off the novelty and it becomes empty and meaningless. Just like them trying to pair up these 2 ppl that nothing is ever possible going to happen (One is a mum of a boy, the other an intern) and they kept using the Rihanna and Chris Brown example on them. Sometimes i just laugh along for the sake of laughing. After that i paused and thought, im not even amused yet im doing the act. Maybe tha...
i found some random stuff that amuses me either when im surfing the net or walking on streets. cool huh. we should visit your road next time! Quek, see i didnt forget you even when im feasting on Prata. hahaha The night is never young. i enjoy the groove and blast of music. Met some new ppl too! Liberty Queen says Hi. lately i found a new hobby: we all wish we were neighbours right :/ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ secret code, guess!
hello, i really love how my life is right now. i love the weekends. i know some friends are really for keeps. i want to receive more letters. i still want my holiday! Live The Life You Love, Love The Life You Live Awareness + Desire + Belief + Action + Perseverance = Phenomenal and Seemingly Magical Outcomes in Your Life You must be aware of what you want; nurture a burning desire to pursue it; hold the belief that you will attain it; create an action plan to achieve it; and, finally, persevere until you get it! i will hold onto this until i get what i want.
IM IN DEEP SHITZ. OMG PLS PRAY FOR ME :( i seriously think ive used up all my good fortune. this time, there's nothing by my side. no more. sand is escaping from my enclosed palms like how time is ticking away. maybe im just too complacent and over-confident of my chances. From three years ago ive been feeling this way and its coming back again. and why must Swine Flu come this time. what has become of the world.
It totally disgust me when someone acts like a total ignorant and snobbish spoilt brat. Ridiculous to think that the whole world owes her a living and has to compromise with her every needs when her actions scream "im your princess, bow to me." i would very much respect an ordinary, humble person than to tolerate such frigging disrespect and rudeness. i would have rolled my eyes a million times till they fall out but of course i didnt. but i guess it will soon be over. Anw it was disappointing today. my trust was breached. i tried calling a million times and they refused to pick it up. maybe they are just scared of me but it is still irresponsible to just disappear without giving a notice which is not what a professional company should behave. then again maybe they are a hoax because it came quite surprising and unexpected. shame on them.