i know this is how things are. circumstances dont permit. but then again opportunities can be created. sometimes i dont notice that im being quiet coz in fact im actively thinking of stuff. Many, many things are occupying my mind, just like a malignant cell that hasnt been removed completely. Thats why i was kinda surprised when they commented. Maybe its just the start/end of the day that is making me wanting to be more peaceful thus sometimes i choose to just listen and not actively involve in any discussion. However largely, it still boils down to my mood. im sorry that im kinda moody and soul-less but i rly did have fun searching for which xiang . thats the da xiang . haha. i bet Han Yanyi had lots of my stupid photos on hostage, pls yanyi i love you. hahaha! There're lots of errands i have to do, things that i've got to go tidy up but im procrastinating. i want a change of environment but then again its easier said that done. Not that im not happy how it is now but i belie...
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i think im ok now. i was just really lost and insecure for the past few days. i was feeling damn terrible at work yesterday but i managed to do crisis control. Its not only scaring you but its freaking me out as well. i wanna talk to you :( Its indignant and confusion. At least at night i had things to keep it off my mind. i love Jo and company for the fun that we shared. After the trip today, im more assured. Please, please. i want my happy days.
How i wish i didn't know it. Maybe its speculation but the time, the ppl there and all the evidence and my own analysis all came too clearly to me. Its undeniably obvious. My heart sank. i felt like im being fooled around in this stupid game. i dont doubt myself. But my positive outlook is wearing away fast and the situation isnt encouraging at all. Then again, i zoomed out to see the big picture and realised i ought to swallow my own plight. Did i see this coming? Did i bring things upon myself? Everything is slapping me back to square one. This is reality. Things dont just change for no reason. Pity is never a weapon, strategy is. i did have fun with you guys today, we laughed and i did enjoy. But that doesn't change the fact. im constantly reminded, every minute. Sometimes i dont even recognise myself. seriously im damn tired of all these. shagged. im really shagged.
WHAT IF I DONT GET IT? you'll never understand how haunting it is unless you are in my shoes. i need a change, i feel suffocated at work. i dont know why. Maybe coz i havent been producing leads. But the angel on the other side is telling me to endure just a lil bit more. Mundane-ness is killing me. One thing i cant tolerate. We are so bored that we result to poking each other randomly. So i turned my head towards Claudia, "Yes?" Her reply was *smiles. "im bored" Me, "... " The jokes in office are no longer funny. They keep repeating the same old story that has worn off the novelty and it becomes empty and meaningless. Just like them trying to pair up these 2 ppl that nothing is ever possible going to happen (One is a mum of a boy, the other an intern) and they kept using the Rihanna and Chris Brown example on them. Sometimes i just laugh along for the sake of laughing. After that i paused and thought, im not even amused yet im doing the act. Maybe tha...
i found some random stuff that amuses me either when im surfing the net or walking on streets. cool huh. we should visit your road next time! Quek, see i didnt forget you even when im feasting on Prata. hahaha The night is never young. i enjoy the groove and blast of music. Met some new ppl too! Liberty Queen says Hi. lately i found a new hobby: we all wish we were neighbours right :/ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ secret code, guess!
hello, i really love how my life is right now. i love the weekends. i know some friends are really for keeps. i want to receive more letters. i still want my holiday! Live The Life You Love, Love The Life You Live Awareness + Desire + Belief + Action + Perseverance = Phenomenal and Seemingly Magical Outcomes in Your Life You must be aware of what you want; nurture a burning desire to pursue it; hold the belief that you will attain it; create an action plan to achieve it; and, finally, persevere until you get it! i will hold onto this until i get what i want.
IM IN DEEP SHITZ. OMG PLS PRAY FOR ME :( i seriously think ive used up all my good fortune. this time, there's nothing by my side. no more. sand is escaping from my enclosed palms like how time is ticking away. maybe im just too complacent and over-confident of my chances. From three years ago ive been feeling this way and its coming back again. and why must Swine Flu come this time. what has become of the world.
It totally disgust me when someone acts like a total ignorant and snobbish spoilt brat. Ridiculous to think that the whole world owes her a living and has to compromise with her every needs when her actions scream "im your princess, bow to me." i would very much respect an ordinary, humble person than to tolerate such frigging disrespect and rudeness. i would have rolled my eyes a million times till they fall out but of course i didnt. but i guess it will soon be over. Anw it was disappointing today. my trust was breached. i tried calling a million times and they refused to pick it up. maybe they are just scared of me but it is still irresponsible to just disappear without giving a notice which is not what a professional company should behave. then again maybe they are a hoax because it came quite surprising and unexpected. shame on them.
Good Friday was a day i wanted to do something extraordinary. so much that i must have been crazy to drag cousin to Tampines with me. UNIQLO's advertisement is really effective huh. this is probably one of the last times i will do it. We queued to enter there, can you believe this. The queue was all the way till the fire exit staircase. I must have been insane. haha! i will not go in there a second time. And so the whole of Singapore decided to swam over there and escalators have to be stopped and crowds have to be ushered by securities. So we escaped to Changi. Being the suaku me isnt a frequent visitor of the east so i was kinda amazed by the stuff there. It was truly a bliss to eat along Changi Beach and enjoy the night breeze. Perhaps one of the rare escapada. i cant remember what exactly conversed but time indeed passed very quickly during good times. i so felt like camping overnight there :X And i went to paradise. ok i was exaggerating but its really pretty! i had great ti...
im sad, im sad. i wanted more but there isnt. i saw the safti dining area once again.. after about 4 years! that was when we were young and ugly. haha. nothing has changed much. i wish my memory is good enough to let me replay what had happened during that time. fond memories in shuai No.1 :D 4 more days, darling!
i enjoyed the company that is ever so spontaneous and ready to embark on the next fun. Keli shall receive the honour of being so 'on' to plan this impromtu gathering which was somehow a success. Chilled at Timbre with the fellow ai zai-s and some other 0609. They made me laugh at just how silly we can be. Such an abundle of joy:D i realised i love having late-nights. its only the transport problem thats all, i need a chauffeur ! Lets just go crazy and let loose for some more time ;D this is damn disgusting. my face is turning into a hamburger recently. someone pls save me. that tub of B & J, those Magnum and Ferrero are really a sin. nobody said it was ever easy. nothing is fixed forever. either embrace change or let it be ur fit, you choose. you've got to be brave to tide through these. you can do it!
joke. my embarrassing moment. Story is: i was trying to tease Jaz about her winning Shi san yao but in the end.. *huey ² says: LOL. zai J - i did not die from the excitement. LOLS says: HAHAHA like seriously right!! *huey ² says: haha DUH. who in their life will get it is like better than 4D u can ply mj everyday. ur income J - i did not die from the excitement. LOLS says: HAHA erms huey the 250 is buy 4d de LOL *huey ² says: HAHAHA not mj?! HAHAHAHA J - i did not die from the excitement. LOLS says: HAHA yeah mj win 250 with 10cent, 20 cent impossiblle luh
Your words just Fly me to the moon Let me sing among those stars I almost turned Les today. There was a pretty girl that made me talk i-n-v-o-l-u-n-t-a-r-y to her! There was a teeny weeny moment i hope i was a guy. HAHAHA. crap. Blame it on the raging testosterone that over-secreted. She must have thought i was crazy. How Fun, THE curse came through. i called Thailand. " $#(*&^%$, KARP" i have to pretend i understood but in fact i could only pick out one or two NOUNS out of the whole sentence through the operator. YS TEACH ME!! They are really slow in understanding which explains why i took 15min per call but they are not even my intended contact. i spoke to various types of receptionists regardless of F or M, young or old. All but the IT Managers or CIO. if u can see my expression when i call, you can make a Funniest movie out of it. ok im joking. All i can say is im glad today's work has ended but tomorrow's has yet to come. RAH, im dropping hair alr. i learnt t...
Moving on. Its been smooth-sailing at work. In fact its great! i had an abundant of fun and truckloads of sense of achievement. My conversion rate was 7.7% which hit pass the target of 3.5%. i had 3 leads today. Grins. For those that offended me, i shall forget about them. Live life easier this way :)
The joker has a flip side to him. To those that don't know him well he is merely someone that is always cheerful and pleases everyone. However he wears disguises to protect himself from being hurt. A very sad truth like that in Batman. i wish i've known but i still want to retain that bit of ignorance cause i fear.
Admission applications are such a headache. i cant believe im so stressed over it that i woke up thinking about it and even dreamt abt it the next day, consecutively. To such an extent that ive decided to deal with it once and for all to end my misery. im more or less done with them except to wait for the appraisals to come in which i hope will really, really help. i had such a hectic weekend from visiting so many open houses. ive been too immersed in these that i havent got time to get out of the house! im lacking sleep, help! for a change, yea. my colleagues have been teasing me about playing MJ and drinking beer( rmb the time we mixed Asahi and sprite to get this COIN smell) . why? i can conceal well huh. Anw i didnt believe MJ can be addictive till ive experienced it myself. its absurb that my family plays so frequently and ive never touched my own family tiles till Sunday. meantime, i better worry about passing FTT before its too late. ha.
How can some people be still so nonchalent while im deeply concern yet feel fustrated that what i originally thought was possible just came crashing down. maybe what ive been sitting on all these while are hopes and more hopes. but doesnt hopes lead to dream and then passion followed by churning them into reality called GOALS? WTF man. with my current grades how can i still enter NTU business. Blame it on being inspired by some people, subsequently seeing light and feeling strongly to do what i want. Nevertheless, im going to do it coz im going to follow the heart this time round. It will either be a turning point or diving into grave. This is another form of courage driven by the fear of regret. ha. did i make any sense to you? but i know what im talking about.